shorted out

two cups of hazelnut houseblend and i wanted to jump off the nearest cliff. They brew some strong coffee at panera bread. Caffine normally doesnt do much to me, outside of getting me giddy. This time im driving through town with my sister on the same road i wrecked with the music as loud as it goes screaming "ive got my killer insinct back!!" yeah...thank God i made it home safe. I collapsed on my bed listening to homesongs....which FINALLY arrived. Ive been waiting over a month to see it in the mailbox. Its a really good album. But so is annie's sci'fi canon blue(s) taking a chance on new music is always worth it. that album is amazing. take this for instance....


and this life i cannot lose
gently opens full to you
in open air these spirits flare to discover
how to carry on with a familiar face
acknowledging our new displacement
to be free to stand alone

~means to an end

awesome stuff. killer.

lost at sea...you and me

in the even that my life should ever be turned to film....please play this as the credits roll.

Sailing over wave and tide oh ho ho

Fantastic waves against our sides oh ho ho

And I'm not so afraid

Lost at sea, as i should be

And I'm not so afraid

Lost at sea, you and I, you and me

Congratulations

Cause we've made it

All the way home

All the way home

And you know that

Until the stars fall

I will always love you

I will always love you

The mystery of salt and sea oh ho ho

Has never been intriguing oh ho ho

And to me but the sea

Green is set so beautifully

Against your thoughtful face

That I must close my eyes

And turn my face

Congratulations

Cause we've made it

All the way home

All the way home

And you know that

Until the stars fall

I will always love you

I will always love you

Still floating soft

I am dreaming and I'm glad I lost

And still with my fingers

I'm drawing circles in the water

In the water

And still, still you're always there

.eisley.

time and distance = what?

something to ponder

I have no idea where last night came from.....just one drop in this hijacked week i suppose. Anyway here is another raindrop from my downpour.

You will lose sleep
You will write me songs
You will tell me "go to hell"
You will kiss me as i cry
You will be sure i'll leave at dawn
But i'll hang the stars above you

I will spend my life for a cause
And not see you waste away
Your lips, they will remind me
As the moon draws our bodies in closer

I'll rush to save you from yourself
All the thoughts that pull you under
I keep trying to change the world
And you can't stand it

So we share a smile
For the difference, the miles and the time
Sitting close beside you
Here in the dark
My will collapses in silence
I lean upon your shoulder
In the end i have it all
If i have won your heart.

notitle

I fell

like a sunset

behind the hills

Sinking

low

in beautiful gold

and amber tones

And when I fell

asleep

my dreams were

shorelines

etched with

deep shades

of blue

1.11.05

the elms

I forgot to mention i woke up in a winter wonderland this morning. The snow clung to the trees in the most beautiful way. Captivating. And the elms are working on new music...i can wait. ive come across some really good music. The Billions, Bon Voyage, Starflyer 59, Joy Electric, Viva Voice, Over The Rhine. This next paycheck will be blown pretty fast. Yesterday i picked up "never take friendship personal" from Anberlin . Not bad. A little on theh heavier side. But Stephens voice is so good...i want to say layers...it makes me think of layer. I listen to it and continually find something new. The themes on the record also kind of fit my life, maybe i can sort through some of the pieces that have settled now that the storm is passed. Anyway I need to find a show to go to. Ill do that now.

wake up little suzy...

haha the fact that the title actually fits this post is funny. But! to the post

I have this problem waking up on time in the morning....the snooze button was invented for me. I discovered my father also has this problem. So, its not my fault, my inabilty to arise on time is an inherited trait - not a personal failing. This morning my father and I both had early morning appointments and needed to leave the house by 7:30 in the AM...which meant I needed to be out of bed at 6:30. So i did what i normally do and ask my sister to wake me up (even though she didnt need to be up until closer to 8). So she set this little alarm clock AND the CD player to go off. I for some strange reason actuallyheard hers go off. (it was probably due to the fact i did not sleep and have not slept well for almost a month) I took cold medicine last night thinking i might actually snag some decent rest. No go....i saw the clock blink midnight before i closed my eyes for 3 hours. Anyway hers goes off, then mine does. I hit snooze instinctively and consider skipping my shower to stay in bed longer. As i lie there contemplating this course of action I hear my fathers alarm go off...and continue to go off (another trait i have from him) soon his is singing this annoying duet with my brothers alarm. [sidenote: There is something so genuine about an 11 year old. They are so eager. He set his alarm so he could be up with my dad and get his school done so they could hang out.] Anyway when i realized 4 alarms had to be set just to wake up 2 people i gave up and went to the kitchen to make some orange juice. Call it guilt or whatever you want. My resolutioin for february is to wake up early and get used to it. Im sure it wont kill me. if it does i die young.

it is hard to say.

this is an interesting blog.

this would be amazing.

this is funny, its brent lain!!!! "uhh, it looks like my hair is short...." wow id forgotten all about those days.

this makes me feel better.



that is all i have to say.

im sorry blogger.

its been a while since i posted. lots of snow here in ohio....makes me want to go sled riding when i inhale but by the time i exhale im devising a way to leave the state. Im flat broke, i hope my check clears with the court in time. Ive bought more music this month than i have in the past 6. Crazy stuff going on.


My life is a long drive home.